Rebecca ([info]nikitangel) wrote,
2005-08-14 15:05:00
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'Ran a Good Show', Wes-Faith, PG13, 1 of 1

Title: Ran a Good Show
Author: Nikitangel
Rating: PG13
Pairing: Wes/Faith (not necessarily ‘shippy)
Words: 730
Thanks to: [info]married_n_mich for a generous beta job!
Summary: Post-NFA - Faith hears about Wesley.


Brits know how to say goodbye.

Not that he bothered. Of course not. Guy heads off into the fight of his life, can’t waste time calling his … a Slayer.

I could have been there. Could have helped. Definitely could have saved his sorry ass, not that he deserved it.

Idiot.

Wes is such a guy sometimes. Like he’s too cool to ask for help or something. Hell, I have an entire army of Slayers practically vibrating with excitement at the chance to fight real evil. Seems like aiming a few of them California-ward might have been a smart idea. So much for Watcher smarts.

He could have at least called. Let people know what they were doing. Even if he didn’t want help, he could at least have done that. What, they don’t have phones at Evil & Associates?

Angel found a phone. Called B, but at least he called someone, even if it was too late. Didn’t call me, of course. Take a mindwalk with a guy, you’d think he’d at least call you himself. No, I get to hear this from B, of all people.

Not like there was much to hear. Cell phone lost connection or something. All of L.A.’s been cut off since then. All lines currently busy, as they say. Government kept marching in soldiers and firefighters with their shiny helmets and walkie-talkies. No one’s come marching out yet.

All B could stammer out after the call was that Wes and Gunn were gone. Couldn’t even say the word.

Dead. They were dead. For real dead, not that bizarre temporary version the SunnyD crowd tends to catch.

Gone.

It’s not like I was ever going to apologize. Stuff in the past should stay there. We were never going to hug and cry and learn and grow. But we got somewhere last time. I don’t know where, but something changed. You know that feeling you get in your gut sometimes?

Obviously Wes didn’t. If he could just run off and get himself killed without a word … bastard probably hadn’t given me a second thought since I left L.A. “Thanks for saving our asses, see ya around. Don’t call us, we’ll call you.”

Better have been worth it. If he threw away his pathetic life for some grand Good, it better be pretty fucking awesome.

I heard the Council’s starting up again. ‘Cause being a Slayer’s no fun without stuffy English guys telling you what to do, right?. Actually read that memo, the one with all those fancy names. Giles caught me and I had to be quick like and toss it in B’s box without finishing.

Never really believed his name was on it anyway. He wasn’t that guy anymore. Hell, I’m not that girl anymore, whether he believed it or not. We’re too old for the game.

He didn’t like me smoking in L.A.. What’s that about? Like I’m gonna make it to my 25th birthday anyway. Lung cancer, not really an issue. He gets uptight over the strangest stuff sometimes.

Got uptight, I guess.

Haven’t had a smoke since the news came. No reason. Just didn’t feel like it. Felt like sitting here in the ruins of that old Council, kicking dirt and chunks of concrete. “Breaking ground” tomorrow. Starting it all up again. Building right over the old and forgetting about it.

Watcher and Slayer screwed up? Fine, make a new set. Shinier. Good as new. Just gotta get rid of this old mess.

Not a total mess, though. Me and Wes, we managed to scrape together a little of that redemption stuff Angel was always going on about. Wonder if any of that was in these burnt-up pages floating around in the dust?

Bet not. Bet they had a million memos on the many ways in which The Slayer and The Watcher fucked up. Wesley Wyndham-Pryce, Failure. Check. Helped save the world later on? Sorry, missed that episode.

Least he doesn’t have to listen to them anymore. Or his asshole dad. I’m not saying he’s in a better place, or whatever. He’s just gone. Still.

Rest in Peace.

Good luck on that peace thing, Wes. Let me know what it’s like.
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[info]missambs

August 14 2005, 23:24:32 UTC 6 years ago

Fuck. I have tears! This broke my heart. Perfect Faith voice - way perfect, and.. I just... gah. Man.

I'm going to... get tissue now. *sniffles*

[info]nikitangel

August 14 2005, 23:30:17 UTC 6 years ago

Oh, thank you so much! What wonderful feedback. I'm so glad you were moved by the fic. Compliments on my Faith voice mean the most to me, so thank you.

[info]married_n_mich

August 15 2005, 01:40:41 UTC 6 years ago

Yay!

I was wondering when or even if you were going to post this! Mucho better than I remembered.

So glad you did! And yep, excellent Faith voice.

*Clapping*

[info]nikitangel

August 15 2005, 02:13:48 UTC 6 years ago

Thanks! I know, I took forever. Stuff happened, I kinda forgot about it for awhile, you know :-) The muse, she is wily!

It's interesting that you suggested the first-person thing, because that's what I realized I wanted to do the whole time. I even had to take out the last line originally, because I couldn't figure out how to do it third-person. Guess we just need outside perspective sometimes!

[info]married_n_mich

6 years ago

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[info]leni_ba

August 15 2005, 04:16:20 UTC 6 years ago

Ouch. *sniffles* Sorry I can't give you better fedback, but I did tell [info]sadbhyl it was her request. (I just hope it was)

[info]sadbhyl

August 15 2005, 13:21:19 UTC 6 years ago

It was, and omg, it was absolutely perfect! This was exactly the kind of thing I was thinking off and just couldn't execute myself. You captured perfectly the anger, the connection, the beautiful fucked-up-ness of their whole relationship with such beauty and resignation. Thank you so much for this wonderful piece!

[info]nikitangel

6 years ago

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[info]keith5by5

August 15 2005, 07:32:47 UTC 6 years ago

Very Touching

Perfect Faith voice too.

[info]nikitangel

August 17 2005, 18:52:55 UTC 6 years ago

Re: Very Touching

Thank you very much!

[info]m_phoenix

August 15 2005, 11:16:51 UTC 6 years ago

Aww. Damn that's sad. Your Faith voice is as always spot on. It's so good to see you writing again!

[info]nikitangel

August 17 2005, 18:53:32 UTC 6 years ago

Thank you! Your opinion on my Faithfic is always important to me :-)

[info]cadence_k

August 15 2005, 13:40:48 UTC 6 years ago

This is absolutely incredible. Your Faith voice is, of course, great. The last few lines are especially powerful. Great job!

[info]nikitangel

August 17 2005, 18:54:40 UTC 6 years ago

Thank you! I tweaked those last lines for awhile before they felt right, so I'm glad it gelled in the end :-)

[info]psubrat

August 15 2005, 13:46:00 UTC 6 years ago

Here by way of [info]sadbhyl's journal. This is wonderful! ::sniff:: Thanks for sharing.

[info]nikitangel

August 17 2005, 18:55:22 UTC 6 years ago

Thank *you* for commenting! Glad you liked it.

[info]amybnnyc

August 15 2005, 13:51:25 UTC 6 years ago

This was just absolutely gorgeous... heartbreaking and haunting and beautifully evocative.

Thank you for sharing!

[info]nikitangel

August 17 2005, 18:55:52 UTC 6 years ago

Thank you for commenting! Such wonderful words to hear about my work.

[info]wickedfox

August 15 2005, 14:44:16 UTC 6 years ago

[info]sadbhyl pointed the way and I'm so glad she did. This was perfectly Faith, down to the last letter. Wonderfully done.

[info]nikitangel

August 17 2005, 18:56:28 UTC 6 years ago

Thank you so much! I'm glad you liked it.

[info]makd

August 15 2005, 16:08:23 UTC 6 years ago

very nice. very, very nice.

[info]nikitangel

August 17 2005, 18:56:46 UTC 6 years ago

Thank you very, very much :-)

[info]empressvesica

August 15 2005, 16:55:07 UTC 6 years ago

I think you made me tear up a little. That was beautifully done.

[info]nikitangel

August 17 2005, 18:57:03 UTC 6 years ago

Oh, what a compliment. Thank you!

[info]flurblewig

August 15 2005, 19:34:00 UTC 6 years ago

Damn, that was one powerful piece of writing! Pitch-perfect Faith. Excellent stuff.

[info]nikitangel

August 17 2005, 18:57:17 UTC 6 years ago

Thanks! What great feedback!

[info]mydeira

August 15 2005, 22:30:13 UTC 6 years ago

Spot on Faith voice and very true to character. Damn. Just damn.

[info]nikitangel

August 17 2005, 18:57:33 UTC 6 years ago

Wow! Thanks very much!

[info]emeraldteal

August 16 2005, 08:56:07 UTC 6 years ago

Hi, I came here via [info]watching_daily :)

And I'm so glad I read this! You have got down Faith's voice perfectly. Lovely job! Thanks so much for sharing. :)

[info]nikitangel

August 17 2005, 18:58:11 UTC 6 years ago

Thanks for commenting! And for linking to that comm - I haven't seen it before. Always nice to see you've been recced :-)

[info]mona1347

August 17 2005, 15:36:59 UTC 6 years ago

I...love you. I just love you.

Your Faith voice is spot-on, as always. This is EXACTLY how I saw it go down for Faith after NFA. *happy angsty sigh*

[info]nikitangel

August 17 2005, 18:58:58 UTC 6 years ago

::basks in the love::

Thank you! I like to write fic that could still fit in canon. Poor Faith!

[info]nikitangel

6 years ago

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[info]cheebs

September 1 2005, 21:02:41 UTC 6 years ago

Ohhhhhh wow...I feel like I want to cry but I can't because it's just more shit that happened and I'm all cried out. (Me, overidentify? Nah....)

I know I've said before that I worship your Faith voice, but this? About as close to perfection as it gets. I'll be adding this and "Ravages" to Elizadelic at next update, pending your approval, of course.

[info]nikitangel

September 1 2005, 22:38:49 UTC 6 years ago

Wow, great feedback!! Anyone who worships my Faith voice is welcome to include my fics on her site *g* Honored to be included. It's been so great to get such a response with this - makes me not want to wait another 8 months before writing another!

[info]rawumber

September 11 2005, 19:28:13 UTC 6 years ago


That made me cry a bit at the end--

You had Faith's voice, and through her, I could hear Wes.

And the two of them, see that connection, and feel her grief that was- so Faith.

Beautiful!

[info]nikitangel

September 11 2005, 23:00:32 UTC 6 years ago

Wow, making someone cry is ultimate feedback. Thank you so much!

[info]valdjinn

September 11 2005, 22:53:48 UTC 6 years ago

Rode here from [info]crack_van.

This is exceptional, and a moving view of what Faith's reaction may have been. Thank you for writing it.

[info]nikitangel

September 11 2005, 23:01:04 UTC 6 years ago

Thank *you* for commenting! And for mentioning the rec - I wondered at the sudden interest in this fic *g*

[info]valdjinn

6 years ago

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[info]lizamanynames

September 12 2005, 21:46:36 UTC 6 years ago

*wipes eyes*

Oh, yes. Just... yes.

*sniffles* Perfect Faith voice, and yeah, I dearly love aftermath fics, and I wish, wish, wish someone had thought to call Faith. She was important, dammit!

Here from [info]crack_van, BTW - the best part of my day, thanks to stuff like this.

[info]nikitangel

September 13 2005, 00:59:04 UTC 6 years ago

She was very important! Poor girl was overlooked nearly her whole life. Not in my fic, though *g*

Thanks so much for the great feedback. I don't normally read crack_van, but I'm becoming a big fan now!

[info]lizamanynames

6 years ago

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[info]musesfool

September 14 2005, 21:07:31 UTC 6 years ago

Oh, excellent Faith voice. Lovely.

[info]nikitangel

September 14 2005, 22:30:59 UTC 6 years ago

Thank you! I'm so pleased when people like my Faith voice!

[info]spiralleds

October 6 2005, 08:23:24 UTC 6 years ago

So doofy me is playing six degrees of separatation on LJ. I wandered from a [info]metafandom post to the [info]crack_van to the Angel memories to your fic.

Point being, great Faith stream of consciousness. Really captures her sense of being left out, of being out of sight, out of mind. Great last line.

One tiny thing:

Wesley Wyndham-Price, Failure. Check. Helped save the world later on? Sorry, missed that episode.

It's Wesley Wyndham-Pryce. He manages to have a "y" in every part of his name.

[info]nikitangel

October 6 2005, 13:07:56 UTC 6 years ago

Thanks! And yeah, LJ degrees never seem very separated *g*

I fixed the typo. That guy's name is troublesome!
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